No Pain, No Gain?

Hi Everyone,

It has been a couple of weeks since my last blog. I have been avoiding my computer as I am doing a course at uni and if I open the computer it means doing uni work. So I'm curled up on the sofa blogging from my phone. 

This week was a real gutting week for me! I gained 1.2lb :-( so gutted as I have worked hard, eaten right and still gained. So whoever said the old saying 'no pain no gain' was wrong... I had pain and I gained! The main pain was when during Ripped in 30 my back went. I know I should have stopped but I didn't. I completed the workout and then I went on and did the last chance workout DVD! Oops. Bad move. On Friday I was in agony all day! Work was painful! 

Yesterday I rested, my boyfriend didn't want me to exercise but I wanted to. Anyway I didn't and I was in a foul mood because of that fake gain. Did not deserve it. I wouldn't mind so much if I did! Ok I'll stop going on about that now!

Today I started Ripped in 30 - week 3 workout! It kills your thighs and shoulders so much but is another fine workout from Ms. Michaels. 

Been feeling so up and down lately. I am a size 12 now (up) but feeling like I'm still a size 20! (down). Just feels really weird and I don't know how I really look and where I am right now. I wobble in places and somedays this bothers me and others it doesn't. At work I was told you don't need to lose any more weight (if I had £1 for every time I heard that) and that I was the thinnest person in the room... I looked around and actually at that moment I might have been! But I still feel huge! 

I hate that my body has started playing silly games. This week was my 3rd gain ever but also my biggest gain ever! Ok it's only a pound. But I had 5.8lbs to lose until goal and now I have 7lb to go!!! I also have only 7 weeks til New Years Eve and I am so desperate to do it! It is not out of reach but was closer last week. What's going on! 

I have still never cheated or gone over by one single point. I'm proud of my dedication and determination. I know I've come a long way so please excuse my moaning. The fight is on between me and my body. 

Round one: get rid of 1.2 gain and another 1.2 or more next week!

To be continued.....